Rinse & Repeat

A flaky commitment,
Jokes,
Chemises,
Backup plans,
Whiskey,
Winter walks,
Laughing,
Attraction,
Banter,
Judgements,
Admiration,
Listening,
Talking,
Passivity,
Passion,
Words of affirmation,
You see me,
You feel levelled up,
It won’t get better than this,
You ride the wave,
I ride the wave,
You keep jumping off,
I reel you back in,
I am stronger than you,
You can’t believe I stay afloat-
So you get back on.
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Wine,
False promises,
Reflections,
Sex,
Drunken monologues,
Passionate about people you wish to be,
Movies,
Shows,
Directors,
Writers rooms,
Scripts,
Improv,
New people,
Same places-
You like that I listen.
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I hate that I’m still listening,
Validation,
Never enough,
Adulting,
Kinks,
ADD,
Mental health,
Not ok,
Ok,
Not ok,
Maybe better,
Trying,
You tried so hard-
I tried to believe it was enough.
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”Friends”
Open-ness,
Jealousy,
Lies,
Management,
I’m tired,
You’re tired,
Exhaustion,
False promises,
Alcohol,
Button ups,
Explanations,
Patterns,
Cycles,
You don’t make sense-
I don’t make sense.
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There’s nothing left,
I can’t let go,
I want to feel power,
I domme you,
You surrender,
I feel my strength,
You let me,
I let you let me,
I’m jealous-
You could never hold space for all of me.
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I keep giving you what I want to receive,
we lather, rinse & repeat,
until we are ready to admit what we see.