This Summer Hits Different
Life seems to be a constant cycle of learning & unlearning. I often relearn the same lessons because I pretend I don’t need to take care of myself and that balance is for losers.
It’s fucking exhausting and on top of it, a raging numbness seems to be taking over.
Even amongst insane luxury & privilege, the system has got many of us down.
Social burnout this early into summer has me questioning…
What is freedom? What luxuries actually feel like luxury? What is currency even?
Currently, I am exhausted and truly questioning what is worth my energy.
Most importantly what isn’t?
Like some sort of elimination diet, I am trying my best to eliminate distraction. Because currently my attention span feels under attack.
It hit me recently that the amount to which I consume unnecessary information is probably to blame. No matter how much I reboot, I feel like I am lagging. Like my presence, focus, motivation and priorities are all on the rollercoaster of luck.
So this week I am diminishing phone distractions:
Keeping my phone plugged in the kitchen when home.
Removing notifications, sounds & vibrations
Only going on Instagram 2 days a week
My reflection is that these apps are not only stealing my precious brain power but also complicating communication and dragging out mundane interactions. Oh and of course they also promote spending too. Content is just a word for entertainment, education & information, all of which can be irrelevant & unnecessary.
My intention is to break the habit of constant phone checking so I can stay present and perhaps finish a full thought. To also remove the subconscious waiting, that feels like I am constantly on the edge for a reply, like or comment. And hopefully to reclaim some of my precious energy for more impactful & creative outputs.
Will this be forever? Probably not. Will I remove other distractions? Maybe.
All I do know is that after just 2 days, I notice a big difference.
Keeping precious moments for just me, currently feels like luxury.
