Film Roll 10

February and March 2023, second roll of the year. Weird foggy lighting probably cuz it was still cold out.

To be honest it was only 2 months ago and I barely have any reflections except that it was an interesting time. Had some romance, some deep gratitude for the people who come and go in my life.

The last week of March a work opportunity came around that really helped me feel valid in my ideas. It was new to grieve my old lover while entertaining new romance but I realized it brought a certain grounded-ness that I didn’t have in the past. It helped me not get lost in the fantasy of the person, which is what I’d done in the past.

I had some quality time with family and friends that help me realize my worth and that ultimately I do not need that much in life to be truly satisfied. I also realized how important it is for me and my brain to be working on something. Not from a capitalistic place either, from the NEED to create and build something. This urge that has been in me for most of my life.

My mood ranged from tired to productive and feeling myself completely enthralled with life. I learn to sway between them without getting swept away. Just letting them be.